The Things I Carry

There are many things that i carry, guilt is one of the things I carry and the reason why I carry its because in the year 2009 I left my home, thinking I would be perfectly fine. In my head I tought I was old enough to move out and do whatever I wanted to do, wanted to be independent, thinking I didn't need from my parents anymore. I still remember my mom and dad being so mad at me not wanting to speak to me, very harsh of them to do that but I'm glad they did what they did. I guess I can say I'm glad I went through all this, it helped me realize how much i need from my parents and family and also learned how to not take for granted what my parents have done for me. I'm glad I'm back home but ill still carry the guilt of making my mom and dad cry for me and being worried of not knowing where i was or was i fine or have I eaten. Now I can really say "There's No Place Like Home"

 The fear of Falling into drinking alcohol again is something I carry. I started drinking when I was 13 or 14 years old it just started as doing it for fun. Then I turned 15 and then drinking became real serious there were times when I had no memory of what had happen the night before. Besides what good does drinking bring to someone, I know it didn't bring anything good to me. I guess I can also say that the fear I had inside me was the fear of seeing my dad getting lost in drugs and alcohol again when he had stopped drinking and using drugs, but there I was drinking,even tough I knew my dad had been sober  from his addictions.

LOVE is something i carry its something I'm actually glad I carry, love is the most wonderful feeling a person can have in return and also share with others. I have to say I love my daddy, mommy,little brother, and sister. I love them with all my heart and strenght I would give my life for each and one of them, they have been with me when I most needed them when everybody else turned and walked away, my family didn't they stood by me, held my hand and helped me trough all the way. I thank GOD for the  wonderful family he lend me, each night I pray to the lord above I thank him for each and one of them and ask god to bless our family with love,understanding,patience,and forgiveness.